it's the beginning of a new week again..


would say quite a good beginning actually... probably coz many are already in holiday mood. long weekends for xmas and new yr! :D .. but owell.. not for me though.. gotta work on one of these saturdays.. :/ but nevertheless.. i will survive it! ^^ i shall learn to be more positive :)　

hmmm.. started off quite badly this morning.. had this irritating $*%#$ idiotic f*cking customer today.. arrgh. pissed me off. damn it. i hate it when such idiotic ppl just conveniently blamed their own mistakes on innocent parties.. (e.g. poor me) :'( ... anyway.. kind as i am.. i'm gonna forgive.. but ... not forget.. i'm pretty sure that i'll be able to recognise this idiotic fellow the next time he comes round (that is if he does and i hope he doesn't :/)

and oh.. received quite a few small little gifts from colleagues.. felt kind of embarrassed that i did not prepare anything for them.. so went to do a little shopping today to get them each a little something. gotta do some nice wrapping later.. heheheh.. xmas can be fun.. with the right ppl...




but then again.. i'm expecting this xmas and new yr to be a lonely one.... feeling as plan-less as ever.. :( ...


i missed drinking sessions.... sighs... i missed singing... :'( realised there's been many things, many activities which i've missed out in the recent months.. suddenly feel that my life shouldn't be like this. .. shouldn't i be enjoying while i still can?



i'm gonna break free from this "cell" of mine soon...just real soon... can hardly take it anymore. i feel drained.. emotionally and mentally... sometimes enough is really ENOUGH. ...